I am overwhelmed. I have started too many things that I can't finish right now. My attic is full of shoulds.
I should do so many things. I should change the baking soda in my refrigerator monthly. I should exercise more. I should drink less wine. I should get up earlier and spend more time reading. I should caulk my windows, till my future garden plot, dust, drink more water, and spend more time in meditation. I should tip better, save more and check the air pressure in my tires more often. I should write every day, call my mother more often and paint the cabinets in the kitchen.
I should lighten up and clear out that attic.
What good is a should? Does it make me a better person? It seems that only a did or a does improves my life. Should doesn't do anything but produce guilt. And guilt is worthless. Worse than worthless.
So I have a big should dumpster and I'm dumping all those shoulds right now. I choose instead to look at the things I do that are pretty cool. I'm cutting myself some slack and I'll either do or I won't but I'm not going to feel guilty about it. I'm busy. I don't have time for guilt.
I do have time to feel good, however, and that is a priority.
If it bothers you that my windows are streaky or that the baking soda in my refrigerator is over a month old, please feel free to do something about it. If it worries you that I'm behind schedule on a writing project or that my garden isn't tilled, perhaps you should get a life. That's what I'm doing. And let me just say. . . .